Christmas Meditation

Cat Goodrich
Faith Presbyterian Church, Baltimore, MD
December 24, 2020

Christmas Meditation

 

On this night, we join with Christians across the country and around the world to celebrate Christmas, remembering that God came into the world as the Christ child.  In years past, I’ve enjoyed imagining what’s happening with the Pope in the basilica in Rome, and at St. Martin of the Fields in London, at night shelters and chapels all over the world.  But that’s hard to do this year.  This year, our rituals have been upended, our worship pushed online.  Most family gatherings are small or aren’t happening at all.  And for the first time since it was built in 195X, this sanctuary is not filled with sparkle and song and your beautiful voices on this holy night.  Instead, it’s pretty quiet.

 

But I imagine that first Christmas was pretty quiet, too.  At least, until the baby came, and the angels appeared in the night and sent the shepherds to seek the child in the manger.

 

And we are here, joyful, defiant.  Trusting that Christmas will come, indeed, that Christ will come, no matter how quiet it is, and whether we feel ready or not.    In our living rooms, in our empty church, Christmas will come.  In the beeping woosh of the ICU it will come, in the weary fluorescent buzz of a jail cell it will come.  In homes sparse of furniture, empty of gifts and full of worry, it will come.  To our neighbors on the street and those safe at home.  To the night shift, to the shelter, Christmas will come.  It always does.  Unclenching fists.  Opening hearts.  Sparking hope.  Shedding light where it is needed.

 

And God knows we need some light, need some hope this year.  Because this year – this year.  It’s been a year of sickness and struggle.  A year where we learned again what it meant to be afraid, where we lay awake with worry.  A year of separation from family and friends and faith community.  A year of ups and downs, a year of grief.  A year that has laid bare the inequity and injustice that plague us.  A year of finding our way through the dark.

 

It’s hard to walk confidently in the dark.  You never know, you can’t tell what things are lurking, waiting for you to knock your shin, stub your toe, or cause you to stumble.  We often feel less safe in the dark, on a lonely street or a shadowy parking lot.  My friend Enio Lopez knew this.

 

Enio was the lightbulb king of Shawmut Street.  At least, that’s what we called him.

 

He owned a white duplex on Shawmut Street in Chelsea, where he lived with his wife and teenaged kids.  He’s Guatemalan-American, medium height, with a salt and pepper mustache.  He often wore white K-Swiss tennis shoes, and a pressed button-down shirt.  He was a leader in the neighborhood, the kind of guy who just seemed to know everybody.

 

Chelsea is an inner-urban suburb of Boston, a densely populated, poor immigrant community where I worked as an organizer for an affordable housing nonprofit after seminary.  Shawmut was a long, narrow cross street that ran the length of the neighborhood, a street lined on either side with duplexes like Enio’s or triple-deckers, with a few single-family homes.   Enio loved his neighborhood, but it wasn’t perfect – there were a lot of people packed in, living too close together, which brought some challenges.  Drug deals, crime, car break-ins, and trash were common problems.  There was enough turnover that neighbors didn’t know each other.  I don’t feel safe, he told me.

 

So we knocked on some doors and invited his neighbors to dinner.  Seems a long time ago, and unthinkable now. But we did.  They came and ate, and decided to walk the neighborhood at night together.  They realized the streetlight on their block was out, so they started to call public works and talked to their city councilor about it. In the meantime, their street was too dark, and no one was turning on their porch lights.  So Enio and I wrote to a local store to ask them to donate some light bulbs and they did – boxes and boxes full, more than we could ever use.  And so, bulb by bulb, porch by porch, house by house, we lit up Shawmut Street.

 

Enio was amazing.  He was never without a lightbulb to offer, inviting you to join his campaign. “It’s energy-efficient!” he’d say.  “Turn it on when it gets dark, and leave it on all night.  Help make your street safe.”  It won’t surprise you to learn that Enio serves on Chelsea city council himself, now, the first Latino to represent his district.  That street light did, eventually get fixed.  And I think we managed to give away all those lightbulbs, which have now probably long since burned out.  But for a time, walking down Shawmut Street at night, porch after porch had a welcoming glow.  Bright lights shone out in the dark, bringing a sense of safety, but not just that.  Connectedness, camaraderie.  A sense of home.

 

The gospel of John begins not with Mary or Joseph, not with angels and shepherds, and not with a babe in a manger.  Instead, the gospel of John begins like this: In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God and the word was God.  He was in the beginning with God. All things came into being through him, and without him not one thing came into being.  What has come into being in him was life, and the life was the light of all people.  The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it. 

 

This year has been murky, dark, and difficult, but thanks be to God, there have been lights shining to help us find our way.  Giving us hope.  I’m sure you can name a few.  Neighbors teamed up to deliver groceries to the elderly, food pantries changed how they operate to keep folx not just fed but also well.  When flour and yeast were hard to come by, our old neighbor brought us bread, bless his heart.  The concept of Mutual Aid grabbed headlines – the radical idea of people helping people, what we church folk have been doing for years!  The courage of doctors and nurses, janitors and bus drivers and other essential workers inspired us.  And, recently, picture after picture of friends and colleagues, doctors, nurses, social workers and chaplains with their sleeves rolled up, receiving their vaccines – brings me to tears, and gives me hope that the beginning of the end is here.

 

Tonight, as we worship together but apart from one another, we bear witness to the good news that ours is a God who seeks us out.  Who took on flesh to live with us.  Who emptied themself of divinity to become a helpless baby, to walk among the neglected and forgotten, to bring every lost sheep back into the fold.  Who sent angels to sing to those who had been shut out and left behind, to give the outcast and the poor the good news of salvation.  Who still reaches out to us, despite our doubts, despite our frailty and failings, the wrong we have done and the good we have left undone – still seeks us out in unlikely places and people, in familiar rituals and in those surprising moments when the ordinary shimmers with sacramental light – when bread is broken, water poured, hands clasped, and love shines forth.

 

Proclaimed first on a dark hillside overlooking Bethlehem, the news of God’s redeeming love has reached around the world and through the centuries, and so like the shepherds we all come, each in our own way, to pay him homage. And we find our way, following the lights that shine out: acts of kindness, camaraderie, justice and love.  Porch by porch.  House by house.  We follow the light, all the way home.

 

Prepare the Way

Cat Goodrich
Faith Presbyterian Church, Baltimore, MD
December 6, 2020

 

Prepare the Way
Mark 1:1-8

Mark’s gospel starts abruptly, which is fitting because almost everything else in the gospel happens that way, too.  Mark’s Jesus moves with fierce urgency, jumping from one thing to the next immediately, with little description and no delay.  The whole gospel resounds with a call to wake up, pay attention, so we don’t miss it.  Mark moves so quickly, in fact, that he skips over sweet baby Jesus completely and starts with John, a sweaty toothed madman out in the desert, baptizing people and hollering about the one who is coming – a man not just holier than thou, holier than all of us.  And we’d better get ready, John says.  Get right with God so we can be ready to meet him.

 

John is painted as an incarnation of the prophet Elijah, with a hairshirt on his back and honey dripping from his chin.  John looks back to the prophets of old and then looks ahead, points to the horizon and says soon.  Repent for the day of the Lord is coming soon.  Listen for a word from God:

 

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One of the strengths of the Roman empire – one factor that led to its dominance across Europe, and North Africa, and the Mediterranean – were its roads.  The first paved road in history was the Appian Way!  Roman highway infrastructure facilitated the movement of its military, as well as goods and people across long distances. Roads enabled the empire to grow, and in whatever new land Rome conquered, new roads were built.  You’ve heard the saying, all roads lead to Rome – right?

 

Countless books, from Cormac McCarthy’s The Road to NK Jemison’s Broken Earth Trilogy, portray roads as necessary but dangerous places.  The easiest way to get from point A to point B, but a way that exposes travellers to potential threats.  Roads can be risky.

 

Building a road in the ancient world was not an easy feat.  And anyone who’s worked construction could probably tell you – building a road today is no walk in the park either.  You have to work with topography, clear the way, haul out rocks, haul in gravel, mix cement, pour asphalt, tamp it down.  Even though many Roman roads were still in heavy use even into the middle ages, they’re difficult to maintain without the appropriate equipment and resources.

 

Travel around Guatemala is facilitated by an excellent highway system, built and maintained by a government that needed to move its military into rural and remote mountain villages to terrorize the countryside during thirty years of civil war.  Maintenance crews, though, are often equipped with nothing more than shovels, dirt, and gravel to fill in potholes.  Driving on some roads can be a jarring, jolting, bone-rattling experience.  But they get you where you need to go.

 

The most rural village I’ve ever visited didn’t have a road leading to it.  They built one, so the group I was with could get there.  A narrow track winding for miles through a palm oil plantation, then the thick jungle of a biological reserve where the settlement was.  Men with machetes and shovels hacked at the earth and cut back dense vegetation for weeks to prepare the way for our arrival.  And even as we drove, a few walked ahead in tall black rubber boots, cutting vines and moving branches that had grown over or fallen on the path. Building a road, making a way is back breaking work.  It leaves you with blisters and body aches, calloused hands and grit under your nails.

 

Mark begins by calling people to prepare the way, because God is coming.  Quoting Isaiah, Mark shows us John as the voice calling out in the wilderness: prepare the way of the Lord! The valleys will be lifted up, the mountains made low, and rough places made a plain.

 

That kind of road building, way-making seems impossible, but those words in Isaiah begin what’s called the book of consolation – words of comfort for people who have suffered too much for too long.  And even though Mark’s beginning is a bit jarring, John’s wild-eyed preaching offers us grace: the healing waters of baptism to help with our preparation.

 

Before a surgeon goes into surgery, she scrubs in, washing hands and nails and wrists in an intense ritual.  Nurses and doctors wash their hands with each new patient, and our Muslim brothers and sisters wash their feet and hands at least five times a day, before prayer, to become ritually clean.  Handwashing has taken on new meaning for us this year in the midst of a pandemic, as just twenty seconds scrubbing with soap and water will obliterate the virus.  I know I’m not the only one now hyper aware of germs on the things that I touch, mentally measuring the distance between myself and others, wondering about aerosols and the efficacy of fabric filtration.  Thank God for water, as a means to stay healthy.

 

It’s easy to see how the sacrament of baptism came to be – ritual washing to signify a new beginning, new life.  Cool, refreshing splashes of water carrying the blessing of the Spirit.  Not until I had children, though, did I fully appreciate how grubby people could get!  Washing off grime, wiping your face, washing hands is absolutely necessary in order to look presentable before welcoming an honored guest.

 

So it makes sense, then, that to help people prepare for the coming of the Lord, John baptizes them – a ritual washing to symbolize their repentance.  That is, the inner work of turning away from that which does harm, shown outwardly with water, washing away whatever marked us as unfit or unworthy, unclean or unprepared.  Transforming us into new people, ready to welcome the one who is coming.

 

This preparation is the work of Advent.  With John, we are called to look back to the calls and the promises of the prophets, and look ahead to the time of fulfillment.  We’re called to do the work both within and outside of ourselves to get ready.  Because even though it feels like the world is falling to pieces around us, God is coming.  And that is good news!

 

My girls have a box of books that only comes out at Christmastime.  One of my favorites is a little board book called, who is coming to our house?  Animals in a barn are getting ready for someone to arrive, dusting beams and opening the door.  Each animal does what they can – the spider spins new webs, the hen lays an egg, the duck lines the manger with eider.  But the reason why I like the book is the cat, who says – but it is dark.  And the rat, who says, they will never come.  Because more often than I’d like to admit, in the midst of this terrible year, despite the joy of this season, I find myself with the cat and the rat: beset by doubt, overwhelmed by worry, sad about the state of the world.  I can hear John crying out in the wilderness, but I want to shut out his voice.  I’m not sure if it will make much difference to prepare this year.  Because the night is so long.  Our social fabric is torn apart at the seams, our hearts are broken.  We are depressed at the prospect of another holiday without our families, another service on Zoom.  How many more will be put out onto the street?  How many more will die?  Some days, the grief feels like too much to bear.  How dare we say Christ is coming, how dare we say his coming changed anything at all.

 

In the midst of this, it helps me to remember that Mark was writing to people who were under siege, who were surviving the greatest trauma they’d ever known: violent uprising against their Roman oppressors, when food was scarce, the temple soon to be destroyed, the people scattered to the four winds.  Into that turmoil and trauma, into that doubt and fear and worry and suffering and sadness, Mark says, John says, Isaiah says – take comfort, people.

peace is coming.

To every troubled heart and weary soul.

Peace is coming, to every ICU where exhausted nurses tend to the dying, where people struggle to breathe without their loved ones by their side.

To every home where someone is choosing between groceries and rent.

To every place where violence and terror reign – everywhere people are afraid of what the coming day will bring.

Peace to those who wait in the dark.

Peace to all who long for freedom.

Peace to every home and every heart.

Peace which surpasses all our understanding.

 

Peace is coming with calloused hands and grit under their nails, with a machete and a shovel and tall black rubber boots, building a road through the thickest jungle, making a way where we thought there was no way.

So whatever our worry, whatever our doubt, we must get ready.

Wash our hands, reclaim our baptisms, cleanse our hearts, be renewed and restored by grace.  Because Christ is coming, to make all things new.  And that is very good news, indeed.